When Tory was here: She was the leading light at medical school. Occupying the spaces of disease and always looking to solve problems. A searchlight beam determined to help patients and make them feel better.
If Tory was here today: She would be so excited! We would be celebrating her 21st birthday. She would be able to forget about exams for a while.
Where Tory is today: She is still the same happy, bright girl. Listening to her favourite songs. She is blowing out the candles on her cake. Friends are all around her (occupying the same space).
What I did recently: I walked by a field and remembered when Tory walked the same steps with me.
What I realise today: Tory cannot retrace these steps in person again because she lives in Heaven. However, she also lives in my heart which means that occupying those spaces by the field can happen (again).
What comforts me now: The fact that Winter’s last bite is blunt. Winter loses the fight in the end because light and warmth enter the world. Grief will not defeat me. There is hope because I will see Tory again one day. I will kiss her. We will occupy the same space.
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